Had lunch with a friend yesterday, whom I haven’t seen in ages. Turns out we work with the same company now. As our conversations unfolded we realized that our circumstances are similar in the area of being separated from our children by their choice. We yearn for reconciliation and have both prayed what ever the Lord had laid upon our hearts, at the time. We are no longer young mothers with little tikes under our care; we are more mature women whose children are grown with family of their own. This was the bases of my quizzing the Lord how do we pray now? His response was with blessings. Yes I know this one Lord. See the area where there is a need or a lacking and then bless that person with – not what I think they should be blessed with, for then it becomes a prayer of manipulation; - but bless them the way Heavenly Father shows me to bless them with. I see a need for my son to contact us and let us know how he is doing, I could bless him with the conscious of doing what is right in calling me, or I could clear my mind and ask Heavenly Father what is it He would like me to bless Jeremy with? Jesus what are you praying for my son before Father today? May I bless him with your prayer? “Lord I bless my son in the name of Your Son, Jesus, my Lord, with the Love of Christ, the peace of Christ and reassurance of Christ that he has not been rejected by you. I bless him with the resurfacing of the knowledge that I love him with a mother’s love.” Is that all to the prayer? No, now I must take my part, for there was a reason why our children have broken contact with us. It may be a painful realization that we have actually done something wrong, some disapproval, an angry word, a distancing when they needed us close. Only Heavenly Father knows what lays as the reason to what has happened. We must position ourselves now, to be receptive and changed…. yes, changed…. so when He does lay it upon their hearts to return we, inavertedly, do not turn them away again. It is a humble position to be in, but one with greater blessings then we could imagine. I have the personal belief that a God restored reconciliation is greater then if we do it ourselves or perhaps then a relationship that has never been broken, in some respects. Through our positioning of desiring to be changed to see that blessing of reconciliation, we have the opportunity to forgive, ask for forgiveness, forget the past and take on God’s perspective of the relationship. What a wonderfully awesome place to be in, even though our hearts, minds, have been bruised and sorrowed. I have always had an image of that prodigal’s father standing at a crest of a small hill, waiting, looking for his son’s appearance. He is there that day because he knows in his heart that his Blessed God has positioned him to be there for a special moment. He is thrilled to gaze down the road….”are my old eyes deceiving me, my crusty brain playing tricks on me… no that is my son, my son”…..the delight that begins as a prickle in his heart before the full blown ecstasy of distinguishing the humped, soiled figure staggering in his direction to be his son. What has changed within the father is the new perception he has allowed Jesus to make in him, so that he could embrace this moment how God had desired. I have seen many movies where a prodigal has returned home, they were not often embraced with love but scorned for leaving and in the rare occasions they were greeted with a kiss which soon turned sour for the past had not been forgiven nor forgotten. Even now as I type this, I ask Heavenly Father to move upon me changing what needs to be done. The first thought was how I am perceiving this moment of separation, I must confess it was always in a – poor me slant - maybe not overtly, but it was there. Now Lord how should I perceive this, move upon me to see it your way, not mine. Ah, yes, a moment of anticipation – no thought of yesterday (years) – but one of great joy…. he’s coming home. What an interesting feeling, one of being unencumbered by the past errors on either side allowing one freedom to begin to grow in what Christ has laid ahead for the relationship. Teach us more about your concept, Lord, so we can walk where you desire us to walk.
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